I know what you mean by surfing the waves of grief and chaos.
My wife has a site that celebrates those waves, if you’re ever looking for some inspiration in that realm. Her site is http://www.celestemorris.com
I’m happy you’re here and choosing to laugh and be grateful each step of the way. Even happier that surrounding yourself with this community and experience is on your daily to-do’s.
Let us laugh, be merry and creat epic’ness alone and together!