@annegage thank you for sharing! I have been there too. I have begun to just figure that we humans must be seasonal creatures, like trees losing leaves, sometimes we crap out on our inner resistance. BUT it feels so good to climb out of that! For me I feel like I’ve been climbing out of a rut like the kind you describe in your post, mostly due to getting good daily routines back in my life (one at a time so it doesn’t overwhelm me) and re-reading The Art of War over and over again. Glad to be on the mountain with you, thanks for being brave!